June 5, 2010

God, where are you?

My life is falling apart.

It feels like every where I turn there is something new to nail into my heart...I have hit "eventually"... my heart has been nailed to the ground. I can't seem to break free.

family.
friends.
school.
money.
job.
self.

There is something wrong in all of these areas of my life. I'm holding on with all that I am, but I'm growing tired of every area of my life being a failure.

1 comment:

GLB said...

"When suddenly you seem to lose all you thought you had gained, do not despair. Your healing is not a straight line. You must expect setbacks and regressions. Don't say to yourself, 'All is lost. I have to start all over again.' That is not true. What you have gained, you have gained. Sometimes little things build up and make you lose ground for a moment. Fatigue, a seemingly cold remark, someone's inability to hear you, someone's innocent forgetfulness, which feels like rejection - when all these come together, they can make you feel as if you are right back where you started. But try to think about it instead as being pulled off the road for a while. When you return to the road, you return to the place where you left it, not to where you started...In everything, keep trusting God is with you...keep returning to the road to freedom." {Henri Nouwen, The Inner Voice of Love}