Authentic

Leaving college has altered my perspective

on life, love, God and myself.

I moved away from the community I 

couldn't bear to leave,

and found that my relationship with God

has become the most authentic

than it's ever been.

I'm no longer insecure in my relationship with Him.

I feel a pulse beating strong;

He is mine

and I am His.

When feelings of failure, 

fear of disappointment,

and the acknowledgment of own depravity mock me, 

I no longer feel the need to put myself in time-out for God.

I don't feel the need to tell God how useless or imprefect I am. 

To spend time feeling weighted by guilt

because although I love Him,

I haven't spent time with Him daily. 

I don't need to carry that weight. 

Because unlike human relationships,

I am friends with One who relates

perfectly. 

He knows, and I know

that my depravity, sin and dependence in Him

will never thwart His faithfulness. 

I feel confident 

that He's not going anywhere

and my love for Him

is not something that's going to fade overnight.

This is real. 

Time spent being known 

and knowing Him is precious.

A value and desire that 

I know will be here for as long as I am His. 

Nothing can separate us. 

I will always come back to Him

He will never leave me or forsake me.